When Are You Going to Thailand?

It’s the biggest question we’ve been getting lately. And it’s a great question!

We would love to say that we’re 100% confident of the date, but there’s a few things that simply must happen before we fly to the Land of Smiles…

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As you can probably imagine there’s a lot to do to prepare for moving a family of three internationally. But before we can board our plane, we want to make sure we’re setting ourselves up for success. We don’t just want to get to Thailand – we want to be able to stay there for as many years as the Lord leads.

This means we can’t go alone. We need a team of partners backing us in prayer and in finances. For the past several weeks, we’ve been meeting with friends, family, and the Body of Christ, and sharing with them the vision the Lord has given us. We have been loving connecting with folks over coffee or dinner and letting them in on our excitement that He is launching us into the harvest field!

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Many of those we’ve been meeting with have been saddened that these men and ladyboys have been trapped in prostitution. They’re angered by the injustices that the ladyboys in particular have encountered since they were 5 years old or younger. And they consider it a joy and blessing to partner with us to see Jesus receive His full inheritance from Thailand.

We also are angered and saddened by the situations that we have seen these men trapped in and are eager to see the Great Commission fulfilled in Thailand. We (especially Amy) have seen God do amazing things in the lives of the ladyboys. We can’t wait to step into God’s plan for us. It’s Thailand’s hour and we know that the seeds previously sown for centuries past will bear fruit. We are thrilled that He’s inviting us to be a part of it, and entrusting us with a key part of His plan for the nation.

We have been encouraged by God’s faithfulness as many people have already begun their financial partnership, covering 25% of our monthly needs. Many oIMG_1757thers have committed to do so. We are believing the Lord for a total of $5,000 per month and a start-up fund of $16,000. This will cover our move, help us get established in Bangkok, and enable us as a family of three to live and minister out of a place of strength in a metropolitan city.

Our goal is to be ready to move in January 2017. To make that happen we need to be 75% funded by October.

Commission To Every Nation and Dton Naam require that we be at that degree of funding prior to getting visas secured so that we reach the field fully funded.  While that might seem like a lot, if we had 75 more partners each joining with us at $50 a month we would be fully funded. We want to invite you to journey with us, pray with us, and learn with us! I am sure we will encounter bumps along the way but part of the adventure is doing it TOGETHER. 🙂 We would love nothing more than for you to journey with us as we follow Jesus to Thailand!

Love in Christ,

Matt & Amy Baldwin

Please pray for us! 

  1. For the Lord to continue drawing hearts to partner with us.
  2. Refreshing, renewing, new insights and new connections for us at the upcoming Abolition Summit in Kansas City (August 8-13).
  3. Grace on us as a family as we take steps to prepare for Thailand. 

Questions of the Heart

I was realizing while looking back over my blog how little of the journey I actually shared. God was “perfect, very incredible,” as my friends in Thailand say, and carried me in ways I didn’t know He could through the good, the bad, the ugly. In the middle of the journey, when I was so close to simply giving up and saying it wasn’t worth it, all I had to give were questions:

Why am I here?

Why can’t I give up my dreams?

Why does “why” seem to get me nowhere here?

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A Thai Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! I hope it was a wonderful celebration of the goodness of God in your lives!

Here’s a little synopsis of my first-ever Thai Thanksgiving:

Location: Bangkok, Thailand
High: 91° F
Low: 75° F
Wind:
From NE at 7mph

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The day was full of friends, fellowship, worship, sharing about God’s faithfulness, and food! I’m so blessed that my Thai friends have a thankful heart. It’s beautiful to watch them worship God and thank Him for His many blessings.

This year I am thankful for the ways in which He has moved during my time in Thailand. I’m also thankful for you! You’re such a part of the journey here. Thanks for giving your lives to love well. May God’s abundant blessings overtake you! Love!

Pattaya Praise Kick-Off!

My heart is so full right now that words eek out slowly. I’m in awe of what God is doing right now in the lives of my friends here, but more on that later. For now, because it’s really late at night here, just pray! Today was the start of this year’s Pattaya Praise, an annual four-day worship event where people from all over converge on Pattaya to exalt Jesus. This year is my first year to attend, so I’m really excited. I already feel God moving in the worship and praise, bringing freedom to my heart and to those around me. We are going to be in two primary locations: Balli High Pier and City Hall! We’ll also be doing a parade along Beach Road. Please join with us in praying that God’s presence invades this city and the government of our province (ChonBuri) is impacted by His everlasting love!

Thanks for joining with us!

Ten Minutes from Home…

I decided to take a walk one day and see what was ten minutes from home… Or I guess maybe I should say, I was walking ten minutes one day before I found a songthaew that was going where I needed to go. But either way you look at it…

Ten minutes from home there is a spirit house with a cool table in front of it for all the taxi drivers to play checkers on. Spirit houses are everywhere. They usually have offerings on them and sometimes I have to be careful when I walk by them so as to not get a bee in my eye as they are drawn to the sweet red sodas the Thai offer the spirits.

There’s also some graffiti… don’t ask me why it’s in English. I’m not sure. Graffiti is everywhere here. I rarely see it in Thai. I’m not sure if it’s legal here or not, but I like it.

Ten minutes from home there is currently a carnival. It wasn’t there a couple of months ago. During the day it’s quiet. At night all the lights come on and kids come to play. There’s also a lot of vendors and such further back. I haven’t wandered back to see what all is there. Maybe someday.

As I was waiting for these pictures to load, I started thinking about how each of these things represent something that is important here. The spirit houses represent a very large part of the belief system of the Thai people. Spirit houses literally are everywhere and even where there aren’t spirit houses, red Fanta and smoking red incense sticks can be found as an offering to the spirits.
The graffiti to me represents a quest for family. So many here are searching and it’s common to hear people refer to individuals who aren’t their blood family as their “mom” or “brother” or “sister”. While gangs seek to find that family among each other, the individuals I see day in and day out are seeking family that will not let them down and will be there for each other.
The carnival represents the Thai’s love of “sanook” or fun. To me it speaks of the desire to be fascinated that God put inside each one of us with the intent that He be the one to fascinate us.
In each of these things, only ten minutes from home, I see the cry God put in humanity for himself. A cry to be freed from the weight of sin. A cry to be a part of something greater than ourselves. A cry to be a part of the family of God, A cry to be fascinated. A cry to return to our eternal home, in His arms.

Reality Check from The Soloist

It hasn’t been easy here. I am discovering more of who I am. Sometimes I like what I find. Other times, I don’t. I have found through being the only foreigner on my team that I have a high need for meaningful interactions with others… not just an exchange of pleasantries, but my heart soars in those moments that I get to connect with someone else deeply. Unfortunately, it doesn’t happen all that often right now. Something to do with not speaking Thai yet.

I’ve had a lot of free time on my hands lately, though, to work on remedying that not speaking Thai thing. I’ve also been really asking God to search my heart and show me His for my time here. And what has come to me in these times is something that was spoken over my life the very first day I said yes to God’s invitation to go to Thailand: “He’s calling you to be a friend to the friendless.” At times, I’ve wondered, what’s so powerful about that. Why He wants me to be that for people. And why it must be such a lonely place to walk in.

The other day, I borrowed a movie from a friend… Just to have an infusion of English in my day, or so I thought. But as “The Soloist” was spinning in my laptop, I began seeing the parallels between my life and the life of a journalist, Steve Lopez, who befriended Nathaniel Ayers, a homeless man. I found myself crying when Steve’s wife told him, “You couldn’t stop that earthquake. You can’t fix LA. And you’re never going to cure Nathaniel. Just be his friend and show up.” And I felt the Ultimate Soloist reminding me that’s what I’m here for… just to be a friend. Just to show up. Is it significant? Sometimes I wonder… But I continued feeling the Ultimate Soloist playing the strings of my heart as the final scene from the movie rolled:

A year ago, I met a man who was down on his luck and thought I might be able to help him. I don’t know that I have. Yes, my friend Mr. Ayers now sleeps inside. He has a key. He has a bed. But his metal state and his well-being are as precarious now as they were the day we met. there are people who tell me I’ve helped him. Mental health experts who say that the simple act of being someone’s friend can change his brain chemistry, improve his functioning the world. I can’t speak for Mr. Ayers in that regard. Maybe our friendship has helped him. But maybe not. I can, however speak for myself. I can tell you that by witnessing Mr. Ayer’s courage, his humility, his faith in the power of his art, I’ve learned the dignity of being loyal to something you believe in. Of holding onto it. Above all else, of believing without question that it will carry you home.

I am encouraged in being reminded that being a trustworthy friend to these ones can bring hope and a sense of value…. or “change his brain chemistry, improve his functioning in the world.” However, I don’t believe that I was sent here simply to see things improve in such small measures in the lives of those I have befriended. In the day-to-day moments where I cannot see that my friendship is helping them, I choose to be loyal to this: I believe that the melody and harmonies of God’s everlasting love are powerful enough to bring a shift to the thinking not only of one, but of nations. I believe that though I cannot fix Pattaya, He can. I believe that though I cannot cure these ones, He can cure the most broken of hearts.

As I learn from the One who is Jealous for these souls, I am also learning much from these ones. I am seeing the power of their friendships in my life. Someone told me yesterday, “You are my best friend.” I was humbled at those words, as I have not yet been here three months. The other day I was crying because I was homesick and and a competitive dancer let down his tough facade to let me know he knows how it feels to miss home. A former prostitute said she knew what it’s like to miss one’s family because she misses her daughter. And they told me they would pray for me. And meant it. Maybe my love is changing them. Their love is changing me. And God’s love is changing all of us. What a beautiful symphony we will play as we arise as the Sons and Daughters of the Living God, playing with the Ultimate Soloist, releasing a song of love that will change everything.

My Nest in Pattaya

My first week in Pattaya, I spent in a little apartment while trying to find a place that would become my “nest” in this city… Preferably one that didn’t come with chickens and roosters as a part of the backyard fowl. Because I really don’t care how cute the babies are, I prefer that chickens be found in my food, not my backyard. I also prefer that alarm clocks, not roosters be the ones to encourage me to get out of bed in the morning. I appreciate it when the water heater on the wall of my shower actually produces hot water for more than a few moments and that my bed does not go thunk, thunk when someone sits on it. I know… I am so spoiled.

So after looking around a bit, I found my nest in Pattaya…

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And not only does my apartment have some nice features, it has no chickens (unless you count the ones the vendors in the parking lot cook), is right near quick city transportation and the manager of the building is great. So should you get an inkling to come visit, feel free to call and reserve a room at Eve Place. But you had better tell them that Amy sent you, or you’ll be charged the farang price.

A Random Day in the Life…

This morning, like most, I woke up at 7. This is very early for Pattaya, so I actually enjoy going out early, if I can, before the city wakes up. But today, I brewed a cup of coffee at home and did a bit of Thai homework… Not real likely I’d be able to get a good cup of coffee out and about that early anyway. Between writing sentences in phonetics, I was putting up my laundry from the previous day’s washing. A few items were still damp, so I left them to dry… Darn that not being able to get laundry done early around here. Though there’s a laundry place just a few doors down and they say they open at 10, they work on Thai time, which meant after asking around yesterday with my broken Thai I decided to just lug my laundry across Sukhumvit (the highway) to where I knew they’d be open. Oh well, I’ll check into another laundry spot that opens early enough for things to dry before bed (hopefully) another day.

Before I knew it, it was 8:45 and I was running out the door, a little late for my Thai lesson. Doesn’t help with timeliness that songthaews don’t get running regularly super early around here. (I ended up jumping on an already quite full songthaew and standing for a bit of my ride.) Nor did it help that it was a market day on Soi Buakaow and the songthaew I thought would take me to my Thai lesson was content to merely sit and try and pick up more customers. A dirty look at my driver instead of 10 bhat and a quick jog down the street landed me there about 5 minutes late. I hate being late, but here, mai bpen rai (never mind).

A couple of hours later, my head exploding with the Thai Teacher Nit-Noy had tried to cram in, I was walking back down Soi Buakaow at a more leisurely pace. Suddenly I heard my name and my friend, May appeared out of one of the clothing shops with a hug and a kiss on each cheek. I told her I needed to eat and so she came with me and ordered an amazing dish of rice, chicken and vegetables and we shared a quick lunch together.

When I got back to my place, I had enough time to wash my feet with cool water and pack a smaller bag before P’Lai came and picked me up on her motercycle for a day of outreach. After meeting Sherri, one of my teammates from Canada, we visited a spa where a Christian woman’s trying to begin a training program for girls who want to leave the bars and then headed to the beach to prayer walk. We stopped a few times along the way to say hello before settling in with a few women who had gathered to share a meal.

A parade protesting violence against women (or promoting the good treatment of women, depending on how you look at it) was beginning to line up as we were talking and we decided to cross the street before they got going. Sherri needed to stop at a 7-11 (on practically every corner here) for some water and we noticed a foreign guy with his arm in a sling. He was from Hungary and couldn’t speak much English, but we asked him if we could pray for his arm and he let us. He said after we prayed the hair on his arm was standing on end, but the pain wasn’t any better, so we told him that God was going to heal his arm… to just watch. He also seemed interested in more prayer, so we invited him to come to church. It’ll be interesting to see if he comes.

On the way back to the office to do some language study, we stopped by a bar where Patsy and Erika, a couple of ladyboys I know, work. We just chatted for a bit about why I’m here for so long, which led to inviting them to come to church if they ever have a Sunday off. Erika seems so much more open to God than Patsy… In fact, at one point, Erika seemed to accept Jesus or at the very least be very deeply impacted by God’s love. So I stop by when I can and say hello… they seem to like that, as it’s the slow season and they don’t have many customers.

On the way to the office we said hello to a lot of bar girls and smiled a lot, not really stopping to chat as many are preoccupied with their work. Then we spent about an hour at the office exchanging language… Sherri and P’Lai helping with my Thai and Sherri and I helping P’Lai with her English. Somehow, we managed to get some pieces of language exchanged successfully.

Then Sherri and I walked Soi Buakaow, stopping and doing a little shopping on the way. We both needed new shoulder bags and found cute ones that zip closed instead of the open ones you’ll often find here for 98 bhat. As we continued on to where we could catch a songthaew, I found my heart breaking over how many bar girls and ladyboys work that strip. Jesus loves these ones so much!

Sherri and I kept sharing bits of our stories on our way to The Crossing, which is the skateboard ministry just on the other side of the Big C parking lot from where I live. (Big C is kind of like Wal-Mart.) We found ourselves in the middle of a story about one of my ladyboy friends here when we got to The Crossing, so we sat on the curb talking for a while. Sherri occasionally checked in on one of her kids that comes and hangs out there while Craig, her husband, was ministering to the guys that come and skateboard there.

After Sherri and Craig left with their son, I wandered over to Big C and had Phad Thai with chicken and then went back to The Crossing to hang out some more before heading home.

And there you go, a day in my life, though I can’t say whether it’s typical or a-typical here… I don’t know if there is such a thing as a normal day. There’s always new adventures to be had here.

Departing on June 15!

Quick Update: I am so excited to report that I received my visa and will be departing for Thailand on June 15. Thank you to each of you for your faithfulness in prayers and loving support. But most of all, thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph. Looking forward to sharing with you what He does in my life through my six months in Pattaya!

This week at small group we talked about keeping love alive within us for the lost, the prostitutes, the drug dealers, the broken. We talked about how love for others stems from the place of knowing God’s love for us. It was a very timely message for me as I purchased tickets to Bangkok this week and the reality of this adventure is upon me! I’m departing on June 15 and will be spending six months among the most broken people I have ever met. It almost seems surreal that I will soon be back in Pattaya. After my arrival, I will be going through orientation with Bridges to the Nations, going to bars and loving on the bar girls and ladyboys, worshipping at and loving on Dongtan Beach, and spending time at the Pattaya House of Prayer, all while doing what He leads to raise up a generation of God lovers. God has been so faithful to sustain me, provide for me, and prepare my heart to do this work. Though there’s much my heart longs to see change, my highest aim is to love. If I can leave the mark of love on each person I meet, I will call it a success.

My desire to love well has been solidified over the last month through hearing godly men and women share about living kingdom by choosing to be laid-down lovers. I want to be a laid down lover. At times it seems much gets in the way of that. The reality is that so little does other than me. My Papa God created me for love. To give love. To receive love. Really being a laid down lover is simply about giving and receiving love and not loving my life so much as to shrink from death to my own desires and plans. It’s about living the kingdom lifestyle. The kingdom is upside-down and backwards from the way that makes sense to me. In this kingdom I die to live. I lose to gain. I lay down my life so I can take it up again.

In this season of transition from what is comfortable and familiar to a place that is only vaguely known to me it seems as though I’m laying down much: An amazing group of friends in Northern Colorado that I am very sad to leave. My family. A prayer group I’ve been a part of for the last three years. A small group on Spirit-led evangelism that I have grown to love over the last few months. The church I grew up in. The many fellowships I have been a part of since college… Not to mention a culture in which I know the ways and customs and language. And yet, there is joy in laying down my life for this season and walking out into this new place.

I’m grateful for the ways each of you have enabled me to go through your prayers, your encouragement, and your loving support. Thanks for standing beside me faithfully. Most of all, thanks be to God! Though the next three weeks will be busy in making preparations, you are an important part of this preparation time. I want to connect with you before I go if possible!

Joy in the Journey,
Amy

Prayer Points:
Pray that the relationships that have already been formed between myself and ladyboys in Pattaya will be quickly rekindled when I return.
Thank God that the tensions in Thailand have been eased and peace has been restored.
Pray that a long term solution will be found for the situations that created unrest.
Pray for my transition:
The right place to live
Friendships and fellowship
My new team
The ability to learn Thai quickly